Mountain View Mommy: Sand, Trucks and Testosterone

August 24, 2007

Breaking my heart with each little follicle

Filed under: Body Parts — by mvmommy @ 1:25 pm

Recently I noticed that Andrew is getting hair on his legs. Not the hair that he was born with : the fine sweet baby hair that is like peach fuzz. This hair is more like hair that will be ‘man hair’ later. The kind of hair like his fathers, that will only get longer with time. It sounds odd, but I can’t tell you how much this saddens me.

I have this obsession with my children’s bodies. From the moment they were born I would stare at them in their perfect little baby shapes. I loved their big fat rolly baby bodies. I can be found often grabbing a chubby thigh and making my kids giggle. I love their big bald heads. And I love how toddlers have bellies that are disproportionate to every other part of their body. Their belly can enter a room before they ever do. I love their chubby arm rolls. And the dimples in their elbows and knees.

With one child, you don’t notice the slow evolution of baby to toddler to little boy. It happens gradually, and one day you are just smacked with the obvious fact that your child is no longer a baby or toddler. He is a big boy.

However, with two, it’s more obvious. Andrew getting ‘real’ hair on his legs makes it obvious. The fact he wears underwear makes it obvious. The fact that he is skin & bones & knees & elbows, makes it obvious. But him standing next to Justin makes it even more clear that Andrew’s toddler & baby days are LONG gone.

So lately I have been focusing on Justin. I have been trying to will the baby fat to stay on him. He is already losing his belly. Likewise he is gaining a longer neck. I can still see the chubby arms and thighs, but I know they will soon stretch out too. It makes me so sad.

I am not ready for my babies, to no longer be babies.

I find myself kissing & hugging & snuggling him more. I know the time is flying by. I don’t want to blink & miss it. I know that in a few more months, like his brother, he will no longer be interested in his mother mauling him. Soon he will be growing ‘real hair’ too on his legs, and he won’t have an ounce of baby fat to be found.

I know that this is just one of the MANY first steps in the process of my kids growing up. However I think I am going to mourn the loss of each ‘old’ phase a little bit when it happens. Who knew that I would already start feeling this way only a few years into it?

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4 Comments »

  1. Sniff. My baby, who is I believe older than your oldest, has vast amounts of blond hair on his legs, it’s wild. But he’s still got a big ol’ tummy and oodles of snuggable baby fat.

    Comment by Nicole — August 24, 2007 @ 4:16 pm |Reply

  2. Oh, welcome back!

    Comment by Nicole — August 24, 2007 @ 4:17 pm |Reply

  3. Just you wait til he LEANS over to kiss you goodnight and SCRATCHES your face with his pokey beard stuble……THAT is horrifying. How and when did my baby grow up to have beard stubble and did I teach him everything I meant to? It all went by so quickly.

    Comment by Mary Alice — August 27, 2007 @ 8:34 am |Reply

  4. I tagged you for a meme, so now you have to do a new post 🙂
    Scattegories…

    Comment by Nicole — September 4, 2007 @ 8:44 pm |Reply


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